Saturday, August 14, 2010

I want to die.......

I want every single cell in my body to implode and burst into flames. I want to cease to exist. I want to melt away into the woodwork and be part of the past. I hate myself and every decision I have made. If it were not for my kids I would go sit on the railroad tracks and wait for the train to kill me. They are the reason I live. Without them I would do it. The second they don't need me any more I will find a way to die. I refuse to be like my mother, I refuse to be alone and spiteful. This life is nothing for me now. I just got back from vacation and I should be happy, but instead every shred of glass has broken in my world and I am not worthy to be in it. In three simple words......I hate myself

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