I am going to say, as hurt as I am , as unsure as I am of what is going on, please don't hate Todd. Maybe he doesn't know where his head is, or is unsure of something about himself. Or maybe it is all my fault. There is two sides to every story, and the only side I have is my perception. I know that tonight I am so frustrated. I just want a hug, I just want to be needed more than to make his lunch and coffee. I just keep hoping that I wake up from a bad dream. He doesn't have to worry about me hurting myself. He hurt me enough the night he told me those words. How could I have gone so wrong?
On the other side I put out a job application for a job I really want. Keep your fingers crossed. I will update on that later.